How Being Delulu Led Me to LA La Land

It happened. It's real. After 10 incredible years in New York, I’ve moved to LA la land.

Soon enough, I had the most freeing revelation: I get to choose what my life looks like and I can choose for it to look 100% different than it does now. 

IF there were no limits what would I do? Where would I live? What would my lifestyle be? 

I fully levitated into dream space, but once I tapped back into reality it allowed me to take a look at my habits, my decision making, my patterns.

I came to the understanding that we develop these big dreamy goals in life, and when we achieve them, it's incredible and we’re so happy and fulfilled, but what our lives are filled with are tiny little micro decisions and those are the moments we are navigating and experiencing every day. 

I was ready for my micro decisions to get a lot more vibrant, sexy and aligned. 

...But what are good decisions if you don't have good options?

All of this led me to the following stream of consciousness (which of course I tweeted, because every cohesive thought that my 3 brain cells can conjure up will 100% get tweeted for social proof) 

I decided that in order to change my life I had to field new options. Do things differently. Develop a new set of circumstances so I can make new decisions. Because I can’t form sexy habits–- which is making a distinct choice over and over, and eventually reach my goals—if the options I’m starting out with aren’t sexy. It’s really that simple.

This mindset shift invited an incredible set of newness into my life. I was finally waking up with purpose. I decided if I’m going to have a good day my options no longer included snoozing the alarm until the last possible minute. My options became romanticizing my mornings by creating time for walks before work OR enjoying a morning matcha and conversation by becoming a regular at my neighborhood coffee shop. My options no longer included being dissatisfied in life and work, they included a sweet and surprising option, like exploring the job opportunity that would lead me to LA. 

I explored it with an open heart, open mind, and no expectations. I moseyed through each step of the interview process with an incredible sense of presence, showing up eager but earnest. I felt challenged but an eerie sense of alignment, even though what was on the horizon was so unfamiliar. Through it all, I felt like the audacity to dream created the space for a new life circumstance that I couldn't even conceptualize before to present itself as an option in my life. That felt so f*cking cool. 

Eventually, all of this effort and alignment manifested into an offer. The opportunity to evolve an option into a choice. What's crazy is, by this point, I didn’t have to spend a lot of time deciding if it was time to go. I decided to trust myself. With my newfound ability to cultivate options then make decisions that would materialize into my new dreamy vision for my life, the choice was simple.

So why now? Why This? Funny enough "Why" is the most common question I get when I share the news with loved ones.

And the short answer is “...because I can.”

That is my favorite thing about myself. I’m a “run towards the fire” kinda person. What I’ve learned in life time and time again is that I can carry myself.

I am bold, courageous and brave. If I’ve proven before that I can challenge myself and in the face of it, come out stronger, finer (lol) and better off, how could I not? Especially if I have a opportunity that will provide its own challenges, growth and access to new options.

Staying in a space of dissatisfaction would be self-betrayal. I can't say I wouldn’t grow in NY, I always have. But if I have an opportunity to evolve my set of options and consequently my decision making surrounded by warm weather, some palm trees and a new set of tall dark and handsomes WHO ARE ME to get in the way of that?